diffi_cult (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} diffi_cult) wrote,@ 2008-04-13 20:50:00 |
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I pick up the phone. Flip it open and stare at the display, no missed calls. I've been in the habit of leaving my phone in the other room, any other room, lately. I pause. Roll it over in my mind. Bitter sweet, I put the phone down again.
I've been doing this for a week or so. Thinking about calling an old friend. Well, texting them to be more accurate. Calling them would place myself in a position of vulnerability I am unable to face.
So I will write about it. Divine about it and leave it be. Tell yourself, "if it is meant to be it will happen." Putting it out to the universe as you once told me to do with some other desire. I can't even remember what it was. The advice lingers long after the event. Like bloodstains I did remember.
I am the happiest I have been. As far as I can remember. Yet something still sleeps inside me. I am unbalanced. Succumb to fits of emotion. I am caught in the winds.
The worst facet of fortune telling is not knowing the question. I was tempted, but while trying to transcribe and understand what I was being told, I realized it was gibberish simply because I asked a non question and was responded in like.
I've been doing this for a week or so. Thinking about calling an old friend. Well, texting them to be more accurate. Calling them would place myself in a position of vulnerability I am unable to face.
So I will write about it. Divine about it and leave it be. Tell yourself, "if it is meant to be it will happen." Putting it out to the universe as you once told me to do with some other desire. I can't even remember what it was. The advice lingers long after the event. Like bloodstains I did remember.
I am the happiest I have been. As far as I can remember. Yet something still sleeps inside me. I am unbalanced. Succumb to fits of emotion. I am caught in the winds.
The worst facet of fortune telling is not knowing the question. I was tempted, but while trying to transcribe and understand what I was being told, I realized it was gibberish simply because I asked a non question and was responded in like.
